Thursday, April 10, 2008
I Don't Think They Need to Lock Their Cars (... And Thoughts about Deflated Morale)
Guess these people don't have dachas where they can dump their old cars. These two beauties are parked off of Kutuzovsky Prospect, one of the nicest and most prestigious streets in the city. Residents of these adjacent buildings must be FUMING that two prime parking spots are taken up by these pieces of junk!
On a separate note, emotionally I'm kind of feeling like those cars... Or that tire... Katya has been so incredibly difficult to parent recently, pretty much ever since I missed her school assembly by accident... She had another reflex anoxic seizure three weeks ago (at least it was because she didn't want to leave school; she loves it there so much) and every morning I brace myself for the storm that might be unleashed as I try to get her out the door... The "witching hour" of dinner/bedtime hasn't been that easy, either... And getting her to actually turn off her light at night and sleep has been next-to-impossible... Ever feel like a wet rag that has been wrung so tightly that not a drop of water can fall from it?
There have been moments of tenderness sprinkled in among the crises... And we did have fun at the parks last weekend... And she has been improving gradually since privileges have been taken away and she's having to work to earn them back... But the artillery launched in the morning, even if it's only four mornings a week, is darn crippling. I'm just hanging on, praying for the strength to contain my anger and to parent with patience and love. Last night I took a Lunesta to help me sleep; my fibromyalgia (chronic joint pain) has been quite painful recently and sleep is essential in getting better. Instead of "an uninterrupted good night's rest," however, I was woken up FOURTEEN TIMES before 2 a.m.! It's a losing battle when she's up that late since her ADD medication has completely worn off, and we can't give her more at that hour. Poor Natalia is just walking around a bit shell-shocked from it all...
I wish I could get a masseuse to come give Katya a massage at bedtime... Maybe I'll try it myself...
One thing I've been doing to try to build up my defenses is that I've joined the C25K bandwagon! I was waiting until I'd completed week one of the workout to say something. Here's the link to the program that takes you from being a couch potato (which I wouldn't exactly call myself, but I'm nowhere near the shape I was in when in college) to being able to run a 5K race. My shins are quite sore and my muscles are definitely not used to running, but it's getting easier and it feels great. I followed you into the blogosphere, Rachael, so now I'm tagging along on your journey to get fit.