The main reason is because I have been too busy to even sit down and use my computer. (We also had no internet last week). I have been working very, very long hours. When Chris got home Friday night, I went back to work and got home at 1:30 a.m.... When I haven't been engaged professionally, I've been completely dedicated to getting the apartment in order before the school year officially starts and to doing things with the girls. (Katya has also been sick, which has meant a lot of late-night mothering duties).
The other two reasons are more confusing, and the third is rather serious.
I used to blog because I desperately needed a creative outlet. I felt energized by it. Now, well, I need to focus all that energy on my job... Any energy I dedicate to it right now will have a direct impact on the outcome of my goals for the whole year. That's why I was willing to basically forfeit my summer vacation to work while in Connecticut.
If I have a free moment these days, I have a l-o-n-g list of things that I could be doing to get myself--and the school--ready for the semester. I'm also now responsible for mentoring others, including a handful of new faculty members, and any guidance I can give them in the opening weeks of school will help to set them up for success throughout the year.
Right now my job takes precedence over my blog, whenever I'm not caring for my kids. And exercising is also more important so I have energy for everything.
The third reason? That serious one?
Well, I feel limited in what I can blog about right now. I would LOVE to write about all the ideas pouring forth, all the programs I've conceived of and am in the process of implementing... Such things really excite me, and I'm running on adrenaline about them!
The problem is... well... that I can't write about them right now. I can't write about anything that could end up getting coverage elsewhere on the internet, anything that would make it really easy to track down my kids. I'm not being completely paranoid; others are already publishing details I would keep private in light of my blog exposure. Moscow is not that big a place... It's just not wise. I'd rather be safe than sorry.
I was approached this spring about appearing in media that circulates world-wide, based on my blog and my teaching in Moscow... Such exposure is way more than I had ever wanted, than I had ever conceived possible when I first wrote about my kids on the internet... And now I can't go back in time and do it differently.
I don't want to suddenly turn this blog private. I do, however, need to rethink how I use it... And I'm thinking of creating a second blog that would be private (i.e you'd need a password from me to read it), one in which I would feel free to write about teaching and my professional life. If I keep having to squelch such posts, posts I'd love to write about what has me most excited these days, then I risk losing interest in blogging altogether.
As for this blog, I envision shorter posts that feature little snippets of Moscow life, snippets of my kids' lives as expat kids here. I also realistically know that I won't be able to do much posting until the school year is underway...
In the midst of all this activity, however, I'm happily exhausted. I'm really loving my new job and all the possibilities that come with it.